My biggest struggle has been with myself.
There is a battle in each of our minds. Our mind’s can be loud; they can cripple us with fear, anxiety, and depression. Our minds can tell us that we are not good enough, pretty enough, or smart enough. Our minds can tell us that we are not worthy, that we are unloved, unseen, and unimportant.
I was listening to my mind, letting it keep me in depression and anxiety; letting it keep me quiet, timid and afraid. I thought I could never get out. I seemed to be trapped in my own thoughts. The future seemed unimportant, and the present felt heavy; very, very, heavy. I would look in the mirror and quickly turn away. The girl I saw in the reflection was unworthy, ugly, and dumb.
But one day I didn’t turn away. I looked deep into my reflection, and with tears in my eyes, I told myself that enough was enough. I was tired of being controlled by fear and insecurities, I had big dreams and places to go.
So for months I would look in the mirror in the morning and say, “I am enough! I am smart enough, pretty enough, and capable of doing the things I set my mind to. I have a purpose on this earth and I will not be controlled by insecurities and fear. Instead I will fight, I will smile, and I will go after my dreams.” It was not easy at first. For weeks even though I would say this, I still didn't feel the truth of it. But slowly, I was fighting harder. Slowly the truth of God’s words began to transform my mind and I started to believe the words that I was saying over myself.
My battle with my mind was not a one time battle. It is an everyday decision to look at myself in the mirror and speak truth over my life. It's a decision I have to make everyday to choose to trust God's word over the voice of the world.
Are you fighting this internal battle too? If you are, let me remind you that you are a child of the King of all Kings. Let me remind you that you have power not only over your own mind, but also over the enemy. Where the mind goes, the man follows; so friends, let us direct our thoughts. Let us choose to set our minds on the things above. We have been given power and authority to take CAPTIVE every single thought and make it obedient to the word of God.
I believe in you, even if you don’t believe in yourself yet. You are more powerful than you know. God loves you deeply and intimately and he
doesn’t want you to remain trapped in these kind of thoughts, so look up to Him and let him speak life over you.