You Are Being Guided:
I tend to wayyy overthink things. I am constantly asking God, “is this okay? Is this okay? Can I walk in this direction?” I would really love a printed out schedule from God each day where He outlines exactly what I should do. Preferably with a little column on the side where I could put little check marks (I love checking things off my list).
Here's the thing, God does not want us to live like that. He gave us free will. He deeply desires for us to want to follow Him, not out of obligation, but because we love Him!
I've often gotten myself into trouble because I was so scared of messing up that I failed to do anything. I wanted a loud voice from heaven to tell me if I should date that boy, or take that job. I wanted God to give me clear direction, so I would just wait and wait. I could never make a decision and I kept going back and forth and confusing the heck out of everyone because I was so scared of making a mistake. I really strive to have this ‘perfect’ reputation. This, ironically, is one of my biggest imperfections.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you worked really hard to be perfect and please them? And in the end, you ultimately mess up because you were trying too hard? Well, that's me with God. I try so hard to be perfect for Him that I end up creating a big disaster for myself.
So whenever I get really confused and overthink things, I always go back to 1 Corinthians 14:33: “But God is not the God of confusion but of peace.” If I am confused or lost, it is not from God.
Whenever I get confused I have to realign myself. What was last thing He told me to do? Am I doing it? Is the thing I'm doing now in alignment with what I know I am supposed to do? If it seems to be, then I just make the step forward and do it, knowing that if I made the wrong decision God will redirect me. I still don’t like stepping into things when I don’t know how they are going to end, but I am working on focusing on God. When I focus on Him, I remember His promises to guide and direct my steps. It will all be okay in the end. Our God is a master of making beautiful things out of our mistakes.
Isaiah 26:3: “You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.”
Psalm 32:8: “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with my eye”
Psalm 16:11: “You will show me the path of life, in your presence is fullness of joy"
Deuteronomy 31:8: “He is the one who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed”
Jeremiah 29:11-13: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord”