This week I was treated unfairly. But, I have a choice. Do I sit here and pity myself? Do I go explain to these people that they are out of chances? I may be graceful and kind to their faces "forgiving" and "loving" but I am not really doing that. I have a tally. I keep track of their mistakes and let me tell you they are wayyyy out of free chances.
I could go tell them why I am mad and make them feel really bad. Or, I could block their number, ignore them, refuse to go see them. That will work. Then they will realize that they have mistreated me.
I have been trying to be a really loving and graceful person so I decided against the choices above and did something "mature" (not really). I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and I made a tally. And yah, embarrassingly enough, I actually wrote down all the ways this person had wronged me (very mature ash, very mature haha). The list was long... and I only wrote things down from the past week. Man, they really don't deserve me.
Then I sat there. And cried. Where is my tally? What about my sins? My selfishness? My impatience? I am unkind, and I am unforgiving. My list would never end. The ways in which I have wronged God are countless. What about the time I didn't give when He told me to? The time I chose to use my tongue for evil? But God sent His son to die for me amidst my never ending sin. I was there. I sat and watched as His blood was shed. I yelled for Him to be murdered. And yet, He still loves me. He wrote LOVE on my tally sheet and threw it in the depths of the ocean.
1 Peter 4:8 "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins"
So I wrote love on top of the tally sheet and I made the decision to do my best to focus on God's grace and love towards me. He is a good, good, father. And He loves you more than you will ever know. He chose you, designed you, He has a plan and purpose for your life. So smile my dear, and forgive your bad tallies and the bad tallies of those around you. Love keeps no record of wrongs.
Never lose sight of who you are <3