The Coins

Have you ever prayed for a sign? “Okay God, if the boy I like walks in right now that means he is the one.” Or, “if I am supposed to play basketball on my schools team my brother will pass me the ball right now.”

 

When I was little, and embarrassingly still sometimes today, I used to play those games with God. I remember that I used to ask God for a sign that He was real. You know sometimes when you are questioning your faith just want a sign? You just want to know and be absolutely certain that this thing that you’re praying to is a real thing. So, every once and a while I would pray that God would give me a sign. I always prayed that if God was real that I would see a coin on the ground. This went on for a long time. When He repeatedly didn’t answer me, I kept thinking maybe He wasn’t ready, maybe He needed another opportunity, maybe I missed it. I knew I believed in God, I just really wanted a sign, a visible sign.

 

Years went by of me doing this off and on and finally I realized that what I was doing was stupid. I knew in my heart that He was very real. I realized I had seen and felt Him in so many other ways. I felt Him in desperate times, I saw Him in the beauty of the sky, I heard Him in the voices of those around me.  2 Corinthians 4:18 says, “so we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." I realized that is part of faith, being able to serve and love a God that is eternal and unseen. But at the same time, I realized that I could in fact see traces of God all around me, all I had to do was look. I heard Him in the sound of a new born baby, I saw Him in the beautiful view, I watched Him in the pure smiles of others. If all these beautiful things are from God, then maybe I should stop asking simply for a coin and instead open my eyes to see the handprints of God that are all over the earth.

 

Years and years later, I was walking down my street when suddenly, I ran into all these little coins. I just smiled. I felt like God was giggling saying, “see my precious child, I got you the coins, it was just on my time not yours.” It is not our plan, but God’s. He will answer our prays in His timing. He always listens to our every cry, but He is sooo much bigger and He can see the whole plan. We may want something right now, or want God to give us a straight answer, but a lot of times He doesn’t work that way. We have to trust Him enough to walk by faith. To say, okay God I know you care about the most intricate details of my life, so I trust that if you are not speaking to me right now, there is a bigger plan that I just can’t see in this moment. Wait on Him, He will always come through.

 

So my friend, remember that faith is the assurance of things unseen. But our God, in His mercy, did give us proof. Open your eyes! See His glory in creation. And if you’ve been praying and you feel like God isn’t listening, or doesn’t care, remember that He holds the whole world in His hand. Remember that He loves you more than you will ever know, and He does hear your cries as silent as they may be. Trust that His plans for you are GOOD, and that in His timing He will answer you. His ways are higher than ours so we can live with the assurance that He knows what is best for us. If God would have shown me the coins right away when I first asked, I would never have had the opportunity to grow. I would become used to asking God and receiving, treating Him like a vending machine. I would have also missed the revelation I had about how important it is to have faith and to trust God’s timing, to see Him within His creation and know that He is working and moving, even if I feel He is silent. My prayer for you today is that you may see God in the little things. May you trust that He is very present and really cares. And if His silence is deafening, may you trust that His plans are greater and higher than ours, keep praying and trust that in His perfect timing you will be answered. And try to remember every once and a while to look up and admire His wonderful workmanship.

 

Love you,

Ash

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